No More Broken Wings
3/18/10
Why did I leave?
Many might wonder - why did you leave? What was so awful? I have an Emily also. I did NOT want my Emily growing up like I did. I did not want her to think beatings were part of everyday life. She needs respect, needs to see it, give it, and get it in return. She needs to know that men and women can love each other and not CONTROL. So please watch the videos I post, read my story and that of my Emily, and maybe you will cry, maybe you will be as angry as I am, and maybe, just maybe you will want to do something about this horrendous experience. Maybe the next Emily will be free from this.
Floorboard's filled with baby toys
An' empty coke bottles an' coffee cups
Drivin' through the rain with no radio
Tryin' not to wake her up
Cell phone says "low battery"
God what if i break down?
I'm just lookin' for an exit with a lotta lights
A safe little interstate town
Just a cheap hotel
With a single bed
And cable tv
Is good enough for me an' emily
Some day when she's old enough
She's gonna start askin' questions about him
Some kid at school brings his dad for show an' tell
An' gets her little mind a wonderin'
"where's my daddy? do i have one?
Does he not love me like you do?"
Oh maybe i'll find someone to love the both of us now
An' i'll tell her when she's old enough to know the truth
Will it break her heart?
Will she understand
That i had to leave?
That's what was best for me an' emily
That house was never clean enough his dinner never warm enough
Nothing i did was ever good enough to make him happy
So i guess he gave me what he thought i deserved
But it would kill me if he ever raised his hand to her
Big rigs are throwin' rain on my windshield now
An' i feel like they're laughin' at me
Finally the storm is lettin' up
An' the mornin' is breakin' free
It's a brand new day
It's a second chance
Yesterday is just a memory
For me an' emily
Floorboard is filled with baby toys
An' empty coke bottles an' coffee cups
Least there's one good thing that he gave me
An' she's startin' to wake up
Floorboard's filled with baby toys
An' empty coke bottles an' coffee cups
Drivin' through the rain with no radio
Tryin' not to wake her up
Cell phone says "low battery"
God what if i break down?
I'm just lookin' for an exit with a lotta lights
A safe little interstate town
Just a cheap hotel
With a single bed
And cable tv
Is good enough for me an' emily
Some day when she's old enough
She's gonna start askin' questions about him
Some kid at school brings his dad for show an' tell
An' gets her little mind a wonderin'
"where's my daddy? do i have one?
Does he not love me like you do?"
Oh maybe i'll find someone to love the both of us now
An' i'll tell her when she's old enough to know the truth
Will it break her heart?
Will she understand
That i had to leave?
That's what was best for me an' emily
That house was never clean enough his dinner never warm enough
Nothing i did was ever good enough to make him happy
So i guess he gave me what he thought i deserved
But it would kill me if he ever raised his hand to her
Big rigs are throwin' rain on my windshield now
An' i feel like they're laughin' at me
Finally the storm is lettin' up
An' the mornin' is breakin' free
It's a brand new day
It's a second chance
Yesterday is just a memory
For me an' emily
Floorboard is filled with baby toys
An' empty coke bottles an' coffee cups
Least there's one good thing that he gave me
An' she's startin' to wake up
Labels: Freedom, Me and Emily, Music, Songs Free Us
1 Comments:
I was recently made aware of your site and am a victim of the Court system in Colorado as many Protective Mothers are.
In Colorado, we have been working hard for change and I would appreciate your posting, circulation, and broadcasting for publicity on behalf of all the victimized children and mothers of Colorado. These Interim reforms http://www.courts.state.co.us/userfiles/file/Administration/Executive/Standing%20Committee%20on%20Family%20Issues/Interim_Report_to_Chief_Justice_062310.pdf
need Mothers comments by September 30, 2010 http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/MVWL839.
Reforms were suggested in 2002 and again in 2003, but died due to considerable pushback by unethical practitioners. Significant opposition is expected in 2010 also, eliminating Legislative and Judicial approval once again.
The role of the CFI in Colorado is very powerful. As the “investigative arm of the Court”, they enjoy quasi-judicial immunity, are subject to no body of regulation, report only to the District Court, with the opinion of the CFI as omnipresent. This also applies to court-appointed Parental Responsibility Evaluators (PREs), Guardian Ad litems (GALs), Decision Makers (DMs), and Parenting Coordinators (PCs).
These psychologists, psychiatrists, social workers and attorneys are taking advantage of the system as court appointed assignments are not subject to any insurance payment maximums. They are able to earn $200 - $400 an hour; without any oversight or accountability, background checks, verification of training requirements, competency assessments, continued qualifications, or standard investigation protocols.
I've been to the Sheriff, the District Attorney, the FBI, DORA, the American Psychological Association, the Chief Judge, the District Court Administrator, the SCAO, and the Office of the Child's Representative -- all of whom claim no jurisdiction. My complaint is one of the 5 mentioned before them in the Report on pg 3, however there isn't a process to continue investigating it.
Many more stories can be found at http://www.knowyourcourts.com/ColoPsychBoard/ColoPsychBoard.htm.
For more information, please contact
Amy Miller
Public Policy Director
Colorado Coalition Against Domestic Violence
1120 Lincoln Street, Suite 900
Denver, CO 80203
Direct: 303-962-0933
Cell: 303-968-5964
Toll Free: 888-778-7091 x 812
and
Chad Edinger
Court Auxiliary Services Coordinator
Colorado State Court Administrators Office
101 West Colfax Ave, Suite 500, Denver, CO 80202
phone: 303-837-3605
fax: 303-837-2340
chad.edinger@judicial.state.co.us
and
Bill DeLisio
Family Law Program Manager
Colorado State Court Administrator's Office
101 West Colfax, 5th Floor
Denver, CO 80202
(o) 303-837-3623
(f) 303-837-2340
bill.delisio@judicial.state.co.us
Interestingly, DORA has not stepped forward with recommendations for reforms nor implemented the ones advanced in the 2003 Sunset Review (pg 46), despite the 700+ that have reached their office and been declined for lack of jurisdiction since 1998.
Bryan Jameson and Saul Larsen
Policy Analysts
Colorado Department of Regulatory Agencies
Executive Director's Office
Office of Policy, Research & Regulatory Reform
1560 Broadway, Suite 1550
Denver, CO 80202
Ph: 303-894-7833
bryan.jameson@dora.state.co.us
saul.larsen@dora.state.co.us.
The reforms are also supported by the Equal Justice Foundation, Three Sides to Every Story, and Knowyourcourts.com.
Sincerely,
Moms4ChangeNow@gmail.com
[1] Aug. 13, 2009 - KnowYourCOurts.com exclusive - Family Law "Institute" or thieves' den? http://knowyourcourts.com/News/2009-3Q.htm
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